Post remission

Here i am, an empty soul, nothing more than dead memories.. All i can think about is good time i had long time a go. Those flashback scenes played in an infinite loop. Sometime i regret for becoming manic depressive and close minded, i was too ignorance to all the good things i've achieved in the past. Yeah, life was fucked up but compared to now, i don't know, it's an irony that i improved my health quality but losing all that i love so much. My tiger, how i miss it so much and all of my friends that i can't even play with because of my fucked up immune system. Maybe god did wanna tell me something and yeah, i was too ignorance. It sounds very easy if you listen to mainstream musics and movies, cause if thing goes terribly fucked you can always committed suicide, truth is being dying feels like hell, i can't imagine how it feels when i died. But again, being between life and death, stuck in the middle, i mean yeah now my health quality was greatly improved and i think my leukemia will cured and everything will goes back to normal, but i don't know, cause the world normal today, tomorrow and yesterday seem so goddamn different.

Being normal yesterday means that i can go everywhere i like, do everything i wanna do, get wasted, gone crazy on Saturday nite, burn the road with my friends, and of course with suicidal tendencies, depressive and worried thoughts. I don't know why i possessed those thoughts and tendencies, maybe i was mental, and in very bad state.

And being normal now, well just cross out of the fun activity described above. So, actually i was fighting my own self. From my today perspective, everything got pretty much twisted. And yeah, i know "if" i can go back in time, i will tell my self : Go wasted! drink everything till you can't drink no more! smoke all you like!! And one thing: NEVER WORRIED ABOUT IT! cause when you do worried, you'll find yourself in the future, being bald and lonely.

I have a theory, those people who suffered from disease like mine, are because they stressed and worried every time. Just like me! i mean yeah being depressive and worried does cause stress and decrease life quality. Look at my friends, they smoke, they wasted, and nothing happen to them, cause what? they don't worried about what they did and they enjoy every time they smoke and drink. They don't give a fuck that those two things will kill them at the end, but the interval of happy smoking and drinking and get killed of cancer is a very long time... so, they may already sober and not addicted to smoke, before the diseases get triggered. And it proven that once i was on the hospital a used to be nurse-nun said that most of cancer was trigered by stress. well i think, from the very stupid POV, it is true! put it this way, like in my case, you smoke and you worried the hell bout it cause your parent said you will get cancer and died and bla bla bla.. well, for some teens, they don't give a fuck, so they just keep smoking and "enjoy it", but for teens like me, when they smoke, they will feel worried and think that maybe he will later died of cancer, so they do not enjoy every time they smoke, more like an addiction or substitution of life problem, then this kind of mental state fucked up the physical system of the body. For simple analogy, if you see a man climbing a very high mountain, you discourage him, and the man will fall, while if you encourage him, he will climb successfully to the top without falling. So, who am i going to blame today? society in general, my parents, my grandmother, and many fucking more.

Well my case is very well complicated, cause i have a manic depressive because i only spent 2 years for junior high, they cut my teen enjoyment on the third grade of my junior high.. FUCK THAT! it's fucking amazing that small things like that alter your life afterward. In conclusion, yeah don't be depressive and worrying like an old fucking guy! Be a child, don't afraid to what your mother and father told you! see it from logical point of view, and never afraid to disease, if you never think about it, it will never come, and never think that today is the end of the day, there always be a bright tomorrow, and if maybe tomorrow the world ends, there's always be an afterlife. The very important thing is : when you very afraid of something, fight it! and never ever prohibit your children by planting scary thougts on your children brain especially, don't tell scary thoughts about disease to a child, cause it will actually happen!! and when it does happen like me now, WAKE UP!! erase that fucked up thoutghts about the disease that you're scared to. And be fucking patient for god sake, you can ride your honda and play like usual! JUST WAIT there's always payback time. Yeah i am talking to you bald fuck! Get the fuck away from my body! you raced through my dream taking shape destroy my life!! TIME TO RISE FUCKER! hahaha. so stupid that i am making a note for my future my self to read right now. Cause i know, no one else will listen and understand what i am saying and feeling right now.

Note to self: fight the power.

Blood Cancer

Life's been nothing but a full state of depression lately.. Honda tiger left rusted, playing room become empty n dusted, blood flowing back n forth, drugs raining inside my vein, short hair cut.. I knew that the worst yet to come, until it actually ripped my body apart..

I don't really remember how it all started actually, have you ever seen movies where the hero almost die and he started to see his life before pass before his eyes? well, that did not happen to me at all.. at least until i was hospitalized for the second time..

Well i do remember that life's been a bit messy since the beginning of 2010 remembering the accident happened on the new years eve which disabled me from riding my honda tiger.. At the time, i spent most of my time in my home with a good acquaintance of mine, moritz. He was with me all the time from the beginning of january until sometime around the end of january. At the time, i couldn't play guitar which depressed me a bit, so as an alternative, i made a website for moritz' travel agencies. It was costing me packs of cigarettes, i knew there was something wrong because i was starting to cough a lot, but as usual i just keep move on.

A lot of thing happened on january.. i still remember that we have this bbq, eating half burnt stink ray on the porch with several colleagues, there was also febri my sister's friend, a speed addicted jack ass.. He told me a story where an old man chased him and pretended to sue him. i watched movies in front of my "battle room" with adryan my best pal after the bbq. good movies.. So anw, for the rest of january i spent hours of playing point blank and making website with moritz.. good times.. though the website only half finished.. After moritz got himself back to school again, i spent most of the time play pb, play with mamiel and febri few times, started taking cisco courses and goes to college studying ethical hacking (the last subject to complete my advanced diploma).

Well at least those are few things i can recall before the blood cancer kicked in. I started to feel that there's something teribly wrong when i was taking my last cisco course, at the time, i was having this influenza along with heavy cough, i also felt absolutely weak.. I was very very weak until once my mom give me a ride to the cisco course and drive me to a restaurant instead of going for a cisco class and treat me few dishes where i barfed a lot. Going home, i my gum started to swollen very bad, and i had this infection on my throat so i hardly eat. That night was the very last time of my teenage life before it flipped to this fucked up condition where i ended up now. So, after that, my mom took me to the hospital for my lung related infection, then i meet this lung specialized doctor. He told me to do blood check and xray on my lung. Then the result shows up and the doctor stunned, my blood test results showing my white blood cells was 130.000 while it's only 10.000 for normal people. And i have this moderately heavy lung infection.

For the next 5 minutes, i already had my self on a bed with IV injected on my arm. My mom was crying so bad... and for me, i knew i had leukemia just after seeing the blood test result.

Since i was in junior high, i have this attention disorder that i actually feel nothing when something big happened. Maybe it's because of my physical condition which is a bit weaker than all of my friends that affects my psychological condition that disable me from feeling several expression on few big moments of my life. It blocks me from feeling sad and depressed for a number of days after the big moments.

So here i am now, waiting my blood cell to stabilize after the second induction chemo therapy. Stunned at what i had from between the first time i was hospitalized until now. The moment between was very depressing, sad, and hard. i'd rather stop and look at the sky than writing what happen on the moment between. For me, i was lucky i'm able to survive from lung infection and leukemia at the same time, with minor side effects. The truth is, i have this two personalities, one that feels thing and expression, and one that dumb enough to feel any feeling. That dark side get a grip on me, letting this depression and sadness to be postponed until i get a little bit stronger rite now.

It was one hell of a ride, a highway meters away from hell and stopped here, the last resort. Redemption.

Hanya ada satu kata: 2010 !

2010, ga kerasa, rambut tambah gondrong, rontok tambah edan. kondisi badan totally deteriorated. Awal taun baru aj ud suram, jari tengah gw retak gara2 nonjok sesuatu* (* objek di samarkan untuk keselamatan penulis blog). Tp, pengalaman malam taun baru gw, priceless. It all started at the end of 2009. Setelah bbq dan lari2 telanjang badan (mke celana tetep) di rumah tmn gw beserta anak2 perkumpulan gw, temen gw ngajak gw k salah satu tempat dugem di bdg. Pergilah gw ksana ditemani oleh seorang teman tempur. Dsana gw wasted abis, ngeliat stripper yang DDDDDDDDDDDAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMNNNNNNNN hot!! minum shits yng gw klo mo beli itu kynya hrus nyicil dulu. Balik dri situ gw suruh tmn gw ngebut mke mtr gw dan gw mulai neriakin mobil satu2 yng dilewatin. Satu kali ad sebuah objek gw lewatin dan itu sekitar kurang lebih 100 km/jam dan gw tonjok deh. alhasil darah ngocor kmn2. Besokny tangan gw bengkak segede fuck. yah akhirny libur taun baru gw g bsa ngapa2in. cmn diem maen pb di hum. motor dah g bsa bawa, proyek band cuti dulu, mencret 3 hari. Fuck semuanya anjing.

SSDD (Same Shits, Diferent days)

everyday is exactly the same. That's the only thing that come across my mind lately. I repeat the same exact fucking routine. Wake up, light up few cigars, check my facebook, play guitars, listen to depressing music. Having only one day of studying at ITHB is somehow boring as hell. Sometime, i just feel thats just god damn enough, i want to make changes, but this laziness dominate my entire freakin mind. I lost few of my skill because of this laziness such as computer hacking, physical abilities and even my english vocabs is somehow deleted from my memory. DAMN IT!

m.a.b.o.k.

apakah arti dari sebuah kata "mabok"?

apakah itu merupakan kata sakral yang sangat berarti bagi komunitas anak muda pecinta emo dan metal seantero indonesia saat ini??

apakah penggunaannya begitu hebat hingga dapat menyembuhkan penyakit??

yang pasti, penyakit stress dan penyakit patah hati langsung ilang pas mabok.

tapi, apakah pantas dengan sekedar 30ribu kita dapat membeli sebuah realita fantasi??

melihat dari kandungannya, alkohol, yang memiliki rumus ma + b0 = k yang secara langsung merubah sistem kerja otak kiri dan otak kanan, kita dapat membuka sebuah lembar baru dari sebuah sisi lain dari kehidupan yang sangat fantastis!

kadang2, gw lucu jg ngeliat tmn gw patah hati trus mabok jadi2an.. anjing banget emang klo udah mabok jadi2an.. nelpon2 cewe minta ml lah, ato makan tai kucing dsb.

klo gw, mabok itu bukan lifestyle, tp hanya sekedar selingan hidup..

efeknya kerasa banget walaupun ga mabok.. apakah sistem kerja otak gw udah keganggu?? ato mungkin realita ini begitu aneh untuk dimengerti??

diantara bau menyengat muntahan alkohol dan asap rokok black menthol gw berpikir.

apakah hidup itu?? apakah hanyalah sebuah gambar dan suara yang sangat meyakinkan kita akan suatu kondisi atau hanya sebatas fantasi yang dapat menyebabkan darah mengucur akibat kekerasan yang tidak jelas??

dalam sumpeknya ruangan yang penuh asep rokok iuni gw berfikir..

terus berfikir..

Solusi akan beberapa masalah..

Kadang ada waktunya kita down.. ga tau apa yang bisa kita tunjukin, seakan hampa menusuk jiwa.. menjadi objek akan kekejaman akibat ketidak mampuan kita akan mengahadapi kenyataan..
Pada akhirnya yang terjadi hanyalah keluh kesah hampa tak bermakna..
Hilang ingatan bukanlah jawaban.. kita terlalu banyak membicarakan kenyataan dalam duni fantasi.. kepasrahan dalam spektrum hitam dan putih.. mati bukanlah solusi..

Bagi yang putus asa dalam percintaan.. relax.. cinta ini membunuhku is totally a bullshit..

Bagi yang sering di bully, jangan pernah dibodohi jangan pernah lari dari kenyataan yang dihadapi.. tak ada kata menyerah dan lelah, semua pasti punya sejarah.. hantam rata, bakar semua, jangan pernah menyerah.. hanya ada satu kata : LAWAN!

Bagi yang pusing dengan tugas kuliah, especially in IT major, your reach is global, your power is pure.. you're able to guide a missile by satellite someday..

Bagi yang pusing sebagai vokalis, open your mind! you can lead a nation through a microphone!!

Bagi sebuah komunitas yang sedang berkembang: disini tak pernah mati, disini terus berjalan, disini satu tujuan, disini tetap bersatu!!

Bagi para anggota komunitas yang dijauhi, bersatu itu yang kita yakini, yang penting punya LOYALITAS!

Bagi kaum muda yang kesepian, you're not alone.. take a look around..

Bagi para pemuda yang tersesat yang kehilangan arah dantujuan, tarif kita hanya sekali untuk bernyawa!!

Bagi para pemuda yang terlilit dan terjebak akan kekejaman teman sendiri, they said you were nothing til they made you who you are ... destroy those lies cause you've earned these scars, disrespected... time after time friend lied to and stepped on
but never again!

"Only you and you alone choose your path in life
You better fight cause there's nowhere to hide
No escape and nowhere to run
No turning back now cause your time has... come to burn"

Bagi gw, udah terlalu banyak pedih depresi gw alamin.. but that's life.. I just wanna live!

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Look at me!
Just called to say that it's good to be
ALIVE
In such a small world
I'm all curled up with a book to read
I can make money open up a thrift store
I can make a living off a magazine
I can design an engine sixty four
Miles to a gallon of gasoline
I can make new antibiotics
I can make computers survive aquatic conditions
I know how to run a business
I can make you wanna buy a product
Movers shakers and producers
Me and my friends understand the future
I see the strings that control the systems
I can do anything with no assistance
Cuz I can lead a nation with a microphone
And I can split the atom of a molecule..


Look at me
Driving and I won't stop
And it feels so good to be
Alive and on top
My reach is global
My cause is noble
My power is pure
I can hand out a million vaccinations
Or let'em all die in exasperation
Have'em all healed of their lacerations
Have'em all killed by assassination
I can make anybody go to prison
Just because I don't like'em and
I can do anything with no permission
I have it all under my command
Because I can guide a missile by satellite
And I can hit a target through a telescope
And I can end the planet in a holocaust

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karena gw bisa mengendarai motor ga make stang

"i can ride my bike with no handlebars"

Cuih.. Siswa berpikiran picik = ANjing!

"Sakit JIWA!!! ANJING!! ROBIN ANJING!!!" kata2 yang terhempas keluar oleh gw beberapa saat setelah keluar dri ruangan ujian software engineering..

Emang bisa bikin sakit jiwa orang2 yang bertipe seperti makhluk anjing robin..

Kalau misalnya berada di tengah2 perang, cmn berbekalkan celurit doang, yang laen bawa pistol, klo buat robin sih mending lempar tuh celurit n kabur, walau dia tuh sebnernya tau kalo dia lari tetep bisa ditembak dari jauh.. yah kira2 itulah analogi yang cocok buat sang picik ngentot babi robin.. klo gw di posisi gitu, gw bakal hide in the dark, wait for the ryt timing n SLASH!!!! potong tuh orang semua secara diam2..

pliss deh, semua udah dilengkapi buku n segala jenis contekan coz nieh ujian emang susah banget n semua by means SEMUA MURID YANG DUDUK di KELAS, even pengawasnya tuh ud ngasih green light buat nyontek (though ga secara langsung).. nie orang dateng, duduk seblah gw trus nanya dengan lugunya : "bu, ulangan openbook??" anjing nyolot gila nieh anak.. udah gtu ga mo co-operate lagi ma tmn sebelahnya..

ok, i really appreciate your understanding klo cheatting itu bad, tp mind your own business lah.. lu mo pinter tanpa nyontek?? go ahead, no one forbid you!! tapi masalah gw nyontek apa engga, itu sepenuhnya "hak" gw.. lu bilang k pengawas ajah udah resiko ilang tuh jari tangan gw potong make piso dapur..

welcome to the jungle bin.. i hope you can open your eyes, BOTH OF THEM!!!
you take the blue pill, you will find the endless hole of truth... you take the red pill, you wake up every morning, being mocked by every single creature in earth ended up being an asshole.. too bad youve swallowed the red pill.. sekalian aja telen pill koplo!!

CURSED YOU TO HELL ROBIN!! MATI ANJING!! MATI!!

Malam minggu..

Apa kabar brader-sister smwanya?? apakah baik2 saja?? karena saya tidak peduli... HAHAHAHAHAHA *strezz mo ujian*

Bagaimana malam minggu anda kemarin?? apakah anda pergi nonton filem susana di layar tancep?? pergi menebar cinta di kolam cinta pvj?? ato di kolam ikan?? ato mungkin anda kemarin pergi muter-muter naek motor keliling2 bandung jualan es krim??

well, malming kemarin bwat gw penuh dengan perjuangan.. pertama, gw harus belajar dulu di kosan tmn gw c rendi (rendi tmn gw dari ithb..) n nganter dulu tmn gw c appri ke warteg di dipati ukur.. biz ntu nyampe di rmh, gw lupa ngecas hp di kosan rendi.. emang blkngan gw menderita penyakit lupa ingatan.. kadang2 gw lupa make baju malahan di rumah (bwat pembokat gw: MAMPUS LO LIATIN GW TELANJANG HAHAHAHAHA KATARAK 2 CENTI LO!!!!)

alhasil, setelah itu semua aku pun nelpon adryan alias The L.A. Light man alias The Skywave man alias sang manusia untuk menanyakan aktivitas BV, dia pun bilang klo BV lg malmingan di PVJ.. langsung deh gw capcus k PVJ..

Eh ternyata, gw lupa ngisi bensin!!

anjing edan!!!! kena rabies!!

(foto anjing rabies)

yawdah deh akhirnya gw ke pvj dengan kecepatan maksimum seekor siput yang kakinya keseleo.. tiger gw udah sakau sakratul maut, udah jd busung lapar blum gw kasih bensin..

akhirnya nyampe juga di pvj.. disana gw ketemu anggota bv, irap dan kuda.. setelah itu gw pun memulai petualangan mencari kitab suci.. di gramedia.. (ga nyambung (mau tau kenapa? (tanya galileo (yang sudah wafat (rest in peace brader galileo) ) ) )
yah pokonya abis itu gw jalan2 disana.. ngider2 ga jelas.. rupanya anggota bv yang ex-bpi lg reunian.. ajeb2 loh cwnya!! *rawr* trus setelah beberapa jepretan foto narsis menggunakan hp deo, kita semua pun pulang..

ga tau knp malming kemaren tuh dinodai dengan beberapa kejadian:

gw abis bensin *numpang exist*
c moi, adryan n bimo dikejar pokis..
deo n dandi hampir dipukul tentara berambut cepak bermotorkan mio..

at least itu yang gw inget..

pokonya gtu deh malming kemaren..

n jangan lupa contreng gw sebagai presiden di pemilu nanti.. ingat: pojok kanan atas : BON VOYAGE! huahahahaha... *makin stress ga tau kenapa*

btw, doakan saya sukses ujian yah besok!! klo ga didoain awas loh, gw datengin dalem mimpi jadi miyabi *rawr* huahahahahaha

Source of the incident

This a flasback story before the incident on santa urusula

One ordinary night, dark n silent, gw lagi duduk2 di ruang tempur inhaling the silence of the night, nyokap gw lg nonton di atas, bokap gw lagi ngobrolin tentang kerjaan ma salah satu engineer dari lapangan, ade gw n temennya sedang maen komputer di kamarnya di lante bawah...

SUddenly, gw inget tentang malming kemaren tanggal 11 (bwat anak2 satanic, punten euyy malming ga ngumpul soalnya gw harus nganterin ade gw beserta tmn2ny k bukbin hehehe..) n gw langsung panggil temen ade gw buat ngirim2 tuh foto2 malming di bukbin k laptop gw dari blackberry tmn ade gw.. pas ade gw beserta temennya ngirimin foto2 di bukbin, ada yang ganggu temen ade gw lewat ym dari blackberynya.. nah ini lah sebenernya sumber permasalahan.. trus ade gw langsung nimbrung ym-an ma tuh orang trus ngebuzz dia beberapa kali, niatnya sih bantuin ade gw... offline aja tuh orang yang gangguin temen ade gw..trus pas ade n temen ade gw balik k kamarnya, n gw kembali ngudud dengan asiknya, tiba2 ade gw nelpon k ruang tempur ngasih tau gw, klo ad yang bilang2 mo ngentot n ngomong kasar gtu k ade gw, ngamuk gw langsung ke bawah k kamar ade gw.. trus chatting deh gw ma tuh bangsat.. trus dengan nyolotnya dia nantang gw suruh dateng k daerah riung jam 4 pagi!!!

okay2 aja gw mah knp ga?? ngaku2 punya temen anak2 kampung pas gw telpon... Detailnya, pas gw telpon tuh anak, dia ga ngaku salah n nyuruh gw k daerah riung sana jam 4, ditungguin.. OKAY!!! kata gw..

abis teriak2 ditelpon yang bikin gempar orang semua, gw ;langsung nelpon temen gw, uphie yang lg di rumah tmnnya, beyz yang lagi ntn persib.. trus dy bilang, ayo2 aja jam 4 ksana, "siga jalma gelo wae dot jam 4??? hahaha" kata upi.. aniwei, mereka setuju bwat cabud jam 4 ksana.. n setelah itu nyokap gw yng bingung gw teriak2 ditelpon nanya k ade gw masalahnya n manggil temen2 nyokap gw dari jakarta yang mo dateng besok mlemnya hari senen malem.. so aniwei, sembari nunggu jam 4, gw, bonyok, ade, n tmn gw diajaka makan ma bokap di ngopdul.. pergi deh gw ksana.. trus tuh anak chat lewat ym k temen hp gw minta maaf, n suruh bilang k gw instead of nelpon langsung k gw.. tau dia ciut kaya gini pas balik dri ngopdul, gw batalin rencana pergi jm 4 ma tmn gw, n nyokap gw batalin rencana temennya dateng k bandung..

after that i call the fuckhead ryt away n the problem finished, though this fuckhead's really stubborn as an asshole, not really saying sorry in appropriate way.. aniwei, i accept that as an sorry..

well, at the tuesday, the incident happens..

The incident

Kejadian ini take place di santa ursula beberapa saat yang lalu..

Saat itu gw menjemput ade gw di santa ursula saat pulang sekolah sehabis jalan bareng bonyok.. gw make baju kemeja putih n celana ketat naek mobil picanto..

Sesampainya disana gw nunggu bentar ade gw ampe keluar n say hi to few of my sister's friend. Suasana halaman sekolah crowded banget pas itu.. Waktu ade gw keluar, gw langsung bilang : "mana tuh anak??" ke ade gw (yang ngerjain pas chatting sambil mabok)... spontan, temen2 ade gw langsung nunjuk2 ke seberang jalan ke anak yang lebih pendek dari gw make jaket item, muka serius abis.. langsung deh gw samperin tuh anak sambil ngisep djarum super..

sesampenya gw diseberang langsung gw tanya tuh anak : "lu yang namanya luky?" trus dia jawab "iya".. yawdah deh langsung gw suruh dia minta maaf ke ade gw.. trus tuh anak dengan nyolotnya bilang "ya udah, tiis we atuh.. " berulang2 dari pas kejadian dia chatting.. trus dia namabahin, klo dia tuh mo les, udah disuruh babehnya.. Ga brp lama babehnya nongol, yah ga beda jauh lah sama anaknya, bentuknya.. trus babehnya bilang dengan tegas : "ada apa ini??!?!" trus gw terangin kejadiannya kalo dia ngomong ga senonoh pas caheing gtuh, akhirnya babehnya ngerti tapi mukanya serius banget kaya udah siap mukul gtu, ya gw sih tiis2 aja da yang punya masalah tuh anaknya, bukan babehnya..

Gw giring tuh anak ke seberang jalan ketemu ade gw, trus dia minta maaf ke ade gw, cmn nieh anak kaya ga tau cara minta maaf alias ga tulus minta maafnya, yah dalem hati gw sih problems over lah.. trus balik kan tuh anak, bapanya somehow yang udah siap2 mo pulang dalem mobil ngeliatin gw dengan muka sinis bikin muak abis.. pas tuh anak udah nyampe ke mobil babenya yang da disebrang jalan, gw lempar rokok gw yang saat itu emg udah abis ke arah tuh mobil, with no intention at all alias "ga dengan maksud apa2"..

eh tiba2 c babehnya kesinggung kayanya ngeliat gw lempar rokok ke arah mobil yang jauh diseberang jalan dari halaman santa ursula, trus dia nunjuk2 gw.. "apa2an kamu?? hah?!??!" spontan langsung keluar aura tempur gw, c babeh tersebut turun dari mobil boksnya, sambil nunjuk2 gw n teriak2... at this point, pikiran gw kosong, fokus ma babeh tuh anak dengan napsu yang tinggi banget, akhirnya gw ma dia berdiri di tengah jalan, dia nunjuk2 muka gw sambil ngomong macem2 lah, otak gw udah penuh dengan napsu mo nonjok tuh babeh in the fucking face!!! udah ga kedengeran lagi dia ngomong apa.. pokonya seinget gw, pokonya intinya tuh dia ngebentak2 gw soalnya gw ganggu anak dia n dia juga bilang apa ini masalah mo dibikin lebih panjang terus gw bilang yang punya salah tuh anak bapa bukan bapa..

kesel dia, langsung megang kerah gw, gw tau dia mau mukul gw, gw lepasin aja pegangan dia dari kerah gw, gw liatin terus mata nieh babeh sinting kan, gw bisa liat klo matanya berbinar2 seakan mo ngasih tau gw bahwa, dia ga terima gw gituin anaknya walaupun anaknya salah, ato dengan kata lain mah, ga terima salah.. langsung aja, halaman santa ursula yang berisik jadi hening ngeliatin gw berantem ma tuh orang.. ngeliat gw udah mulai out of control, mang tukang minuman langsung mundurin gw.. ga terima gw, udah ade gw dihina2 pecun ma tu orng, sekarang babehnya bikin masalah.. sampe diseberang gw digiring ma tukang minuman, gw ludahin tuh jalan, cuih!!! trus tuh babeh nempeleng anaknya gtu sambil marah n masuk dalem mobil, ngidupin mobilnya, buka kaca n teriak2 "MATI KAMU!!!" "MATI!!".. ow please deh, childish banget sih kelakuan kaya gtu.. gw diem aja, udah ga tahan pengen ngebunuh tuh orang make piso dapur gw.. akhirnya gw jg teriak "MATI!!!" cukup satu kata yang menegaskan sesuatu yang sangat penting: posisi yang sangat berbahaya bagi tuh babeh n anaknya, dia ga tau capability yang gw bisa lakuin tuk ngancurin tuh orang..

lucunya, among hundreds of people in the street at the time, cuman 1 orang yang berani misahin gw, mang tukang jual minuman, satpam cmn bisa ngeliat doang..

denger ceritanya sih tuh anak punya temen anak2 kampung di daerah riung n ciwastra gtu, n di ciwastranya sendiri dia temen xtc sana.. yang dia ga tau tuh backingan gw aja, klo gw sebutin disini ga enak gw, kesannya bawa2 organisasi gw...

nie kejadian bikin gw kesel ampe ari ini... next time gw hajar aja tuh babeh sinting ma anaknya yang porenges.. no doubt.. gw bunuh aja sekalian, if i have to..

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Buat yang ngeganggu ade gw: oke lah lo minta maaf, tapi nyante aja ANJING! udah untung gw ga datengin, bawa2 nama ciwastra ma riung lg.. Klo mo ngentot, ngentot aja ma anjing tetangga.. Fuck u lah.. smp mabok2an rehe kaya gini.. Gw ludahin aja Lo juga mampus ANJING ANJING ANJING!

Dad n Mom: u 2 r overprotective, this is why i never grow up.. there just to much in this world u prohibit me to see.. i know my limits.. don't pretend that u never done that while you were young..

sis : relax, i'll always be there for you..

denaya : no comment lah, laen kali take care aj, jangan deket2 ma anak2 yang kondisinya masih labil...

Uphie dkk. sorry euyy teu jadi jam 4 t, da si eta na geus minta maaf..

Kalo berani langsung aja, buktikan lo bernyali, datengin gw langsung, dengan senang hati gw sih, klo lo takut, mending lo mabok aja sambil ngentot anjing2 peliharaan tetangga..

Kalo lo bilang minta maaf, okey lah gw ampunin..

Hmm.. sambel setan?? sudah biasa.. tapi kalau Domba setan?!?!?! TORO MARGEN!!!

Domba iblis neraka.... huahaha

Filem versi sunda.. credit goes to alvin..

Alvin Siswanto Film2 versi sunda:
Saving Private Ryan - Nulungan si Rian
Enemy At The Gate - Musuh Ngajedog di Pager
Die Hard - Teu Paeh-Paeh
Die Hard II - Can Paeh Keneh
Die Hard III With A Vengeance - Nya'an euy Hese Pisan Paehna
Bad Boys - Leutik-leutik legeg
Rocky - Osok Neunggeulan Batur
Rain Man - Lalaki Cicing di Bogor
There's Something About Marry - Ari Ceu Meri Teh Kunaon?
Mission Impossible - Moal Bisa
Titanic - Tilelep
Paycheck - Nganjuk Heula
Reign of Fire - Beubeuleuman
Original Sin - Tara Ka Mesjid
Sleepless In Seattle - Cenghar Di Ciateul
Silence of The Lambs - Embe Pundung
Ghost - Jurig Kasep
Bad Boys - Budak Bangor
Are We There Yet? - Lila Teuing Nepina Euy?
Home Alone - Tinggaleun
Casablanca - Mengkol Ti Sudirman
Gone In Sixty Seconds - Indit Siah Kaditu!
The Awakening - Hudang Sare
After The Sunset - Tereh Maghrib

The End of Days - Se'ep Waktosna

Balik ti imah adryan

Malam minggu kemarin, BV mengadakan rapat yang menyangkut tentang keanggotaan, jaket dan juga masalah motor yang gerang gerung depan teras dan di kejar oleh Moi. Saat itu portal di dekat teras didiami oleh beberapa anak tidak dikenal yang bermain gitar dengan spekulasi bahwa mereka adalah elemen dari permasalahan gerang gerung depan teras...

Setelah itu saya, abah, bimo satpol PP dan adryan, menginap bersama di kediaman adryan.. Banyak hal yang menjadi bahan pembicaraan..

Bored..

What a fucking gloomy day.. after the strange dream, now i gotta take my sis computer in plaza and take my sis to "olah raga" while it's raining... I really hate to fuck this rainy moment with colccd breeze... I want to smoke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck!!!!!!!!!!!

Strange Dream

Damn, i just woke up from my strange dream... Asleep for nearly 12 hours, i got my head like spinning around..

I really curios what does my dream is all about.. i stuck on a room, take a pee with my friend and there's a big muscled guy sitting in the middle fucking naked.... it's like fuckin abstract dream..

First Post

Well, this is the first story to post on my blog...

hmm.. let's start with a brief history of my life:

i was born in Bandung on 92, i cheated my way up to ITHB, yeah you know what i mean... im burning my head now just to get my advance diploma..
I cheated death every time i ride my honda tiger..
I have vast network of friends, from the street life to cool people who studied in Singapore, i really envied them coz i can't make my way up there..

My life, well, pretty fucking messed up..
I smoke a lot, drink occasionally (wake the beast of my self), i listen to hardcore music every fucking times (my ears kinda ringing now), most people think I'm gay coz i really never have any relationship with woman since kindergarten. Yeah i do enjoy being a 17 years old college geek, studying and messing around at the same time.

I'm currently hang out with these people:


SatCom (Satanic Community)

This is the second community i recently "joined" (though im not an official member) after [BV], consisting of headbangers, smoking metal engines and hardcore street burners. Nice people though, yet some may "disturbing". It really opens my eyes on how the street life is.





[BV] BON VOYAGE

This is the first hardcore community i ever joined. Recently it's kinda messed up, yeah, people have their own business.

Very long history with these people, it's established on one ordinary night when me, adryan (my best sidekick, so fuckin pure hardcore), Andre (My long time friend) and other two friends burning the street searching a threshold. Long story short, i got stuck here almost like eternal... Burning the street and mess around together.




R.I.D. (Revenge in Death)

Not really a member but i do hang out with the owner a lot, very funny person, love the guy...

Barshake

An outcast from BV started to leave and joined the group. Only experience touring with these guys once. Pure fuckin hardcore, love the way they fucked up cars and throwing cars with stone.. This guys shows me the very first time i face BIN guys with guns..

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That's all i can write ryt now, im runing thin of nicotine..

1 sentence for sure: "Hanya ada satu kata, LAWAN!"

Welcome

Selamat datang.. Liburan 1 minggu yang sangat membuka mata, enjoy the blog..